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Boredom

This week I have been off work for almost two weeks and to be honest I am fucking bored

My intentions were to use the time to get back in the gym, something I was struggling with previously

My thinking was to go during the day when others are working as its not as busy and I can start to remember why I liked going without the anxiety I create about being there

However the national lockdown kicked in, so instead I had two weeks at home and my plans changed and I didnt adapt! 

The over powering thought of cupboards full of food while I am counting calories and trying to avoid it all

This was emphasised by boredom!! 

Having nothing substantial to occupy my mind led to me struggling! Picking on foods I wouldnt of been ofherwised worried about and needing to reach out for support

The mind is a powerful thing and it seems that mine needs to be occupied in order to stop me reaching for food! 


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