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Midweek Motivation


So earlier in the week I saw a post in the JSAM group asking whats peoples motivation?

The response varied:
• the bali 3.0 challenge
• up and coming holidays
• weddings and other events 
• clothing

This got me thinking...

Whats my motivation? Why am I on this path? What is my why?

Truth be known I wasnt planning on starting this process. I had spent a long time overweight, and although I would have always wanted to be smaller I was content on being who I was.

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My weight always held me back in many ways but I always had a smile!

So how am I here?

I had been saving to have gastric surgery but I was in no rush. It was going to cost a lot of money but I was happy to wait. 

Then I was persuaded to start that process despite the finances not being in place, and I saw a consultant in November 18. 

15th December.. The day my surgery was supposed to take place. 

One minor issue! How was I to pay for it? 

Well I couldn't! 

I had lost in excess of 28lb in preparation for surgery and it wasnt to be. There were two ways this could have ended. 

1. I could have been angry, disappointed and gone back to being me. I could have piled the weight back on and carried that smile that I always had. 

Or 

2. I could remain angry, disappointed but I couldfind a way to sustain my weightloss and continue my journey.

I chose the later, I found the likes of TeamRH which intially educated me on nutriention. Explainedthe basic concept of calorie deficit.

Something so fucking simple yet so easily overlooked. 

And now I am here, a JSA member and a week and a half into Bali3.0 challenge. 

So motivates me?

I’d like to say my children, my children motivate me. There is an element of truth in that and I love my children with all my heart. But they aren't going to log my food on a daily basis!

My motivation is knowing that following a disappointment I made a conscious decision to change my life.

I did that!

It is me that drags my ass to the gym dispite the anxiety I get in gym fear. 

And it is me that has lost 80lbs to date. 

I am my motivation


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