A Journey... Again!

I’ve thought long and hard about this blog, started typing then started over.  I wanted talk about time .... ⏱ It goes so fast, I mean already we are in May.. soon to be June, 3 weeks into the Bali challenge and times not stopping for anyone!  Time is something so precious and yet is something often used as a way out. I’m a prime example of not having enough time, or at least saying I don’t. And I  wanted to break it down... show how my time was spent and how it could be improved, but instead: I want to emphasis on timing..  When things happen and how it affects us... There have been some times in my life when things have been bad.  I hit some serious low points... One thing consistant at all of those times was my support.. my family were amazing, but an unexpected friendship formed at just the right TIME Aaron Aaron is my age, we played in the same rugby team. Aaron was, well different. He was a lads lad and wouldn’t think twice about abusing someone.  He was a complete joker, he wou

Kind of fitting really that my own blog be late and mainly down to my own thoughts and feelings. I was always going to talk about mental health this week inline with mental health week, yet a lapse in mine mean’t to be honest I just wasn’t feeling it!  Since the age of 18 I have worked in roles working with people, many of which have been diagnosed mental health illnesses. Yet this week I felt helpless and useless, and completely unmotivated to do anything.  But now I am here... I’m not really back to a point I would say I am happy.. but with the help of many people (many of which don’t even know they were of any help) I know I am going in the right direction.  Those that helped: Firstly  Alistair Hudson, a fellow JSA member. Alistair put a message in the JSAM group outlining his battles and pointing out that we are on a journey. Life is a journey! Everyones journey has bumps in the road but there is always a final destination. Some strong words brought a tear

It’s time for the Bali3.0 weekly round up. Positives • Average weight down by 3.5lbs • 9.5 inches lost throughout various body points • 3 x gym sessions completed • 1 x swimming session of 20 lengths conpleted • sleep has been good • weekly blog written Negatives • only hit 47,200 steps at time of writting • had a bout of illness Round up This week will go down as a success, weight was shifted and inches lost. However I still felt flat, wasn’t as motivated to get shit done!  I sat in the gym car park for an hour Wednesday,then went home!  A number of reasons this happened; 1. I was on phone for work 2. My interview hadn’t gone the way I wanted and I wasnt successful But really, this is me finding an excuse!  Thursday though was a highlight, for the first time in years I weighed under 400lbs! This was massive for me and has really got me to push on!  Next week Whats on? No plans of concern ahead, just a calorie deficit and hard graft. 60,000 steps is a must along side weight resistance

So earlier in the week I saw a post in the JSAM group asking whats peoples motivation? The response varied: • the bali 3.0 challenge • up and coming holidays • weddings and other events  • clothing This got me thinking... Whats my motivation? Why am I on this path? What is my why? Truth be known I wasnt planning on starting this process. I had spent a long time overweight, and although I would have always wanted to be smaller I was content on being who I was. My weight always held me back in many ways but I always had a smile! So how am I here? I had been saving to have gastric surgery but I was in no rush. It was going to cost a lot of money but I was happy to wait.  Then I was persuaded to start that process despite the finances not being in place, and I saw a consultant in November 18.  15th December.. The day my surgery was supposed to take place.  One minor issue! How was I to pay for it?  Well I couldn't!  I had lost in excess of 28lb in preparation for surgery and it wasnt t

So its been 1 week of the Bali 3.0 Reading through the JSAM page there has been some fantastic starts!  Personally I set my self a target to lose 30lbs over the 12 weeks. Now anyone following JSA will know that weighing yourself is something of less importance and instead using measurements and pictures to monitor progress. However for someone being so obese the numbers really matter. I started this challenge weighing an average of 408.5lbs. I say average as I weigh every day and then work out the weeks average. This is for mainly reasons that James talks about. The body alters weight hourly based on water intake, food eaten etc.  So doing it daily gives me a truer reflection on current weight, although still never going to be completely accurate. This week I averaged 403.7lbs, almost 5lbs weight lose.  I did also take body measurements and I have lost around 13.5 inches over those measurements. Sounds good right?!  Damn right its fucking good! I have worked my ass off for this!  I man

Lets talk gym’s....  Is it just me that’s recognised that people outside of Team RH and JSA have a one sided view that Cardio is the key to all weight-loss? Some one fat starts doing weights.. “You’re lifting weights? Bro get on the cardio!”  This grinds my gears, I try to explain muscle mass and how muscle burns more calories then fat and I get a look as if I’m stupid. I mean if I know this, why am I fat; right?! To make things worse, we have gym fear..  For anyone that knows me, meeting new people, confidence on a night out for example isn’t something that bothers me. I will quite happily go into a bar, request a westlife song and then grab a granny to boogie with! Yet when I go to the gym... I pull up in the car park.. I sit, I wait... I start counting cars 1, 2, 3, 4... shit it must be busy in there.  A sudden feeling of nerves and anxiety come over me. Who will be there? What will think of me when I’m doing my thing? They must be judging me.  I